After a rough start at the beginning of my blogging journey, the green-eyed monster and I came to an agreement of sorts. I acknowledged that I would never be a so-called "big" blogger with a Book Fairy sending me boxes full of ARCs each month, and he acknowledged that I was no fun so agreed to leave me alone.
Most of the time, he leaves me be. Then I'll log onto one of the blogging groups I belong to and see something like:
"I'm only getting 1.000 pageviews a day. I've been blogging since January, so shouldn't I have 5K or more by now?"
"I've only got 20,000 likes on my Facebook page. It's been 6 months already, so please tell me what I'm doing wrong?"
This drives me crazy and, I admit, turns me into the She-Hulk of Jealousy. I've been blogging close to six years and I'm nowhere near those numbers! How come they're so popular so quickly? What's wrong with my blog? Why don't people like me?
Then I take a deep breath, remind myself that I'm happy in my own little corner with my own little chair, and get over it.
When I see comments like that, it's hard not to feel a twinge of envy. I know I could increase my numbers by hosting contests with a follow requirement, but I don't want those type of followers. Who wants inflated numbers with followers who never visit? I want people who will stop by, read my posts, and maybe leave a comment saying hello.
Would 20,000 followers be awesome? Of course it would! But I'm realistic enough to know that it's not going to happen because I don't want to put that much work into my blog. I want to keep it fun! And honestly? I would probably freak out if I ever got that big,,,
So let me pull on my big girl panties and banish that lying green-eyed cretin back where he belongs! I'll do my best to stop being jealous of these bloggers and use them as inspiration instead!
Please tell me I'm not the only one tormented occasionally by the grass being greener on the other side of the blogosphere? I'm not trolling for sympathy, just want to know that I'm not alone in battling blogger-envy!