This is Didi.
This is the last picture taken of her, as we had to have her put to sleep this weekend. She was on thyroid medication and I thought she was getting better, then she went downhill fast. Her vet agreed that she was suffering and that we needed to do what was best for her. Doesn't make it any easier, but the look on her face convinced me that she was in pain.
She would have been with me 12 years next month. She was not our first pet, but was with us the longest and was an incredibly sweet girl. I brought her home from the shelter in a misguided attempt to provide a friend for my other cat, Salem. Salem was not happy and I'm pretty sure she never forgave me, but Didi never gave up trying to make friends with her. When Salem passed away, we grieved together.
Didi was my reading buddy. She would curl up next to me on the couch, draping herself over my lap so I could cuddle with her. Going to be strange to read without her curled up next to me. It's strange being at the computer without her on my lap, trying to help me type.
It's harder than expected to deal with. The little things get to me....I'll check to see if she needs fresh water, only to see that her bowls are gone. I'll automatically look down to make sure she's not at the door as I'm going out. I still look for her. It's hard.
I'm going to take some time off. I have some posts already scheduled, but need time to deal with the loss of my baby girl. I'm a little embarrassed that it's hitting me this hard since I'm supposed to be the strong one, but my heart is broken.
She was a very good girl and will be missed....